Entangled in a mess…
Being single—its tough sometimes, isn’t it? There’s this
longing to be with someone, to spend time with them, to develop a close relationship
with, to grow with, to lean on, to love, to be loved by, to have when times get
hard, and to simply just be theirs. I’ve realized though that this is exactly
what being in a relationship with Christ looks like. He cuddles me. He laughs
with me. He’s there. He loves me. He desires to spend time with me. He is
growing me. I am His and He is mine. It’s this beautiful love story that my
heart desires.
Truthfully, the only answer to the cry of my heart is Jesus’ love. There
is nothing
greater than He is. Not even my future husband. I will never, I repeat never
be in a successful relationship until I realize that God is the answer to my
heart, and a husband is an extension of His love for me. My future relationship
will be one that strives to repeat God’s beautiful love story with me. I will
serve, love, and dedicate my life to Christ first—and love my husband, family,
life, friends, etc. second. God is my heart’s answer.
In these different seasons of singleness we often try to
take things into our own hands. We desire this relationship described above,
but we try to do it out of order. We seek man over God daily. So time
and time again we fall short. And who do we blame it on? The big man upstairs.
When in all reality, right before Superman was going to make the save—we take
it into our own hands and strip the hero of his job. God has you and wants to save
you, take off the cape. God talks about not just hearing truth and
going about our business—but doing what it says (James 1:22). Believe
God. Trust God. When we take our lives into our own hands, strip God of
His glorious works, then blame him—we are forgetting the truth that God has so
beautifully given and promised to us. God has me, He wants to give me the
desires of my heart—I just must delight in Him (Psalm 37:4). So I choose to
delight in my King and wait for Him to do His work in my life—so they He gets
all the glory He deserves.
You know, going back to the single thing, it straight stinks
at times. I have 5 beautiful sisters and each one of them are rockin a
relationship beautifully. I could be down…. I could get frustrated… I could get
discouraged, but instead—I wait. I wait on a King that has promised life for
me. I could go ahead and do things my way and the relationship hold on by a thread
or I can do it God’s way—and get entangled in a mess of rope. One is fragile and
can break easy. One is strong and can bare a lot of weight. One can be cut
quickly with hardly any effort and one is held together strong. One is me and
One is God.
My King is jealous for me. And He will have every bit of my
attention until He sees fit that a man of God comes and tries to love me the
way God loves me. Every single woman is a daughter of the King, and the King doesn’t let
His daughter be given to just anyone. We’ve got to quit taking the
crown off the King and trying to slam it onto our heads and to take over a life
that was never ours to begin with. Christ died for my life—He is more than
entitled to rule over it.
Keep faith, keep going strong, keep serving Christ and watch
Him give you the desires of your heart.
God wants to give you the desires of your heart, but your heart should
desire what God wants.
